kill time

Today is a shitty day. This week has been a shitty week and this past month and so on... I just haven't had good luck lately.

In July I moved back home and all my mom did was fight with me. I had no job and all my Simcoe friends were long gone. I felt like I had no one. I got a job come August and I thought all was going well. I had met a man named Rick as well and fell head over heels. We dated for a week, broke up, 2 days later got back together, another week passed and we broke up and then a week later we got back together and then a week after that we broke up AGAIN... How much can a person take! We decided to be "just friends" as if that is humanly possible after falling for what I thought was the best thing ever. That lasted a week before he decided we couldn't hang out anymore and since then he's decided I'm acting weird and he thinks I'm crazy. While all this was happening my new job told me to go ahead and buy my new car... So I did. 25 days later the transmission blew and now I am kind of sort of suing them. So far, nothing. Then I went and bought another new car.... So now I have two new cars and only one works. Then the day before I was supposed to pick up my new-new car I got laid off and it was too late to go back on the sale for my new-new car so... Yes, I have two new cars. Now my ex-boss is denying ever telling me to go ahead and buy the car. A week later I got a new job and hopefully it lasts... but I doubt it the way my life is going lately. My trainer is hot... I have a crush on him but he has a girlfriend so thats out LOL... I just got a text message from Rick saying that he doesn't think Im crazy, just a little immature. WELL NO SHIT I'M 19 AND IF HE WAS IN MY SHOES HE WOULD BE CRAZY! Bah! My little brother keeps eating my food and stealinf my shit and going through my room and fighting with my and calling me names and I really want to punch him in the face and choke him... A LOT. Today I found a peep hole in my wall... that was obviously placed there on purpose. That bothers me. Why is it there? So my little brother can watch me do things? So he can see if I'm in my room so he can go through my stuff? WHO KNOWS! I covered it and now have initiative to fix up my bedroom. My mom is always yelling at me until I get over emotional and cry then she hugs me and says shes sorry. Daddy actually hugs me lately... Its weird and new to me but I like it. I feel like crying and I don't know why.

Yesterday I hung out with Cassie for the first time since highschool basically and I loved it. It had been way too long and I forgot how much fun we have together. She made me forget about all my worries and we even hung out with Amy... but I guess Amy doesn't like me anymore? I didn't do anything but whatever, I'm not going to be the ignorant one here. I wish life was a rainbow with a pot of hundos and a naked hot guy(disease free with his mouth sewn shut and a chain on his ankle) with a slice of blueberry pie.. Sadly its not and I'm going to have to deal with all this junk on my own.