Micheal !

I feel so.. happy.

Smile smile smile.

FUUUDGE

I am on msn, video call with Mr Miiiiike and I am incredibly happy about it.

I made fudge earlier and burned myself, it was fairly typical of me to do. It was starting to set already and ad jus come off the stove, so i thought it was all good and ignored my mothers warnings that alhough i was alreay setting, it was still very hot... and i grabbed a chunk which burned my finger which i shoved in my mouth with the fudge when it then burned my tongue and i spat it out on the floor...
My mothre laughed and said "I told you so" lol


anyways thats my blog for today.

glorious..

I heard Shelly mutter "I hope you die" today... and I don't know if it was too me or if I'm hearing things but I loved it... kind of. I also found out that I am no longer guaranteed a job, I'm just there for as long as they need me... which after the 3 week break will only be a maximum of 2 months so YAY for Valerie, I might be moving to Hamilton a lot sooner then planned... But oh well, shit happens. I'm destined to find what I'm supposed to do sooner or later. If not today then there is always tomorrow. Until of course, 2012 when the world is supposed end. Seriously, what is up with that shit? How can you enjoy life knowing when you're going to die or when everyone else is going to die. Personally, I think it's a load of crap and if anything we'll just end up being over run by Asians(no offense) and robots who want nothing more then to enslave us, oh irony.

I'm currently listening to the first Ice Age and loving it and I'm also sitting on my bed in my underwear wondering why I put so much effort into this silly little thing when I don't want anybody to ever read it... One day, one day everyone will read this and nothing will be a secret but that's the internet for you. Tomorrow at work I am expected to do nothing, I am ever so excited and have no idea why I am still awake, perhaps it is the insane amount of sugar I have taken in within the past hour or two.

I definitely had a good weekend but now that's it over I'm not too sure I'm happy with myself. No regrets mind you, shit happens. I just hope it does in fact turn into more because even though I'm not going to get my hopes up and I'm going to try not get to upset with rejection once more, I really think that there is something there. BOYSBOYSBOYS! I met this guy on OkCupid and he's all talking to me all the time and I'm not sure why, but he is definitely hitting on me but OH WELL... At this point in time, I'm not even sure I want a relationship. I've enjoyed going up to Hamilton every weekend and partying with Valerie and hanging out with Mike too boot is even more fun but I don't know if its right for me... If Hamilton is right for me. Am I supposed to work for the rest of my life? Do I go to college(I'm going no matter what)? What do I go for? I don't want to go because if I'm either a) going to drop out of, b) fail, c) not enjoy what ever I do, it really won't be worth it because I don't have the money to waste or the family support to make any of those mistakes/choices.

Either way, that was just a little venting and I am in fact going to Mohawk College next fall in Hamilton for... something! Whether it be PSW(health sciences), Civil Engineering or Social Service Worker... I don't know, it just depends what I can get into really.

I have been told by three guys in the past 2 days that I am beautiful/pretty/gorgeous/etc and I'm not sure if I should believe them, its not that my confidence is that incredibly low that I can't tkae a compliment, it's just that my trust for guys is like... 0.25%.. for everyone really. There are a couple exceptions to people mind you.

Well, I really need to catch some shut eye, the morning comes sooner then I like... I'm not even sure who exactly I am talking to lol but I do however need a serious hobby or a personal diary rather then this online public notice of my life and its many quirks.

Ode to Gramps ♥

So, I’m sitting here singing “Jesus take the wheel” as loud as I possibly and yes, it’s on repeat.

I managed to put my new bed together, organize things in my room and half clean it. It is still a pit but cleaner, no less. I never realized how many blankets and pillows I actually had until today… I have 3 comforters, 2 huge fleece blankets, 3 medium fleece blankets and 1 small one. I have 5 decorative fuzzy pillows, 2 body pillows, 5 large pillows and the pretty pathetic looking one my mom made me when I was a baby… A 4 foot tall teddy bear, a 4 foot long banana and 2 teddies. My bed is very comfy. Yay!

While cleaning today I found a poem I wrote last year for Gramps… He passed away January 25, 2007.

The poor girl weeps

The old man dies

The family grieves

The sea comes alive

A heart still beating

A memory untouched

A man, cremating

He was loved so much

To times that won

Your heart and mind

To times his daughters and his son

Never had to find

A man so bold

A man so great

It is us he is to hold

When we get through those gates

He’ll be waiting for us all

He’ll be preparing his greeting

It is we, who must call

Who must keep his heart beating

Lest we forget our Grampy ♥

By Jori Doek

October 19, 2007

12.31am

For his service I chose to present a piece of writing that I had prepared especially for this day and it goes like this;

His smile and his grace

All the happiness he placed

The sunshine he pinned in our minds.

With or without a spoon on his nose

My great grandfather and the wife he chose

Brought beauty and love to this world

They are the creators that God sent

To make this amazing family

Gramps isn’t dead, he will never die

He will be alive forever in our hearts and our minds

If you cry, cry for his love

If you cry, cry with a smile

Laugh, cry, hug, kiss, hold and love

Gramps wouldn’t want us to be sad

He will be waiting for every single one of us

Don’t you worry about that.

In his big sailboat

He floats in the sky

Waving to us, making us cry

Miss him and cry for him but remember

Gramps has not died

It is the memories

The pictures, the fun that we had

The love we hold for him

They keep him alive

By Jori Doek

January 27, 2007

God is our protection and our strength. He always helps in times of trouble – Psalm 46:1

The one thing I’ll always remember about Gramps is that no matter how sad or gloomy the day, he always brightened it up by simply stating “today is a wonderful day”.

In the bible King Solomon says, “Good people enjoy the positive results of their words” – Proverbs 13:2

That’s my Gramps, my great grandfather. He was always ready to greet others with a warm welcome, a word of encouragement, enthusiasm for the task at hand and a positive outlook on the future. Solomon also says that “a cheerful heart is good medicine” – Proverbs 17:22 My Gramps was the best medicine of all.

To conclude this all, I would love to rant on about my weekend but I really don't feel up to it right now. I had a great time with great friends and I hope it doesn't end here... I already want the holidays to end just so I can know...

foxes den ; ]

Last night Mike called me wasted. It made my night and I loved it. It was kind of weird at first but then it was funny and kind of drunkenly sweet. Kirby took my phone and started talking to him and he told her that I was hot and his logic was that if I was hot, and shes my sister**, then she must be hot too! It was hilarious and made my night.

Kelcey is now home foreverzzzz!

**I basically lived with the Steinhoff's for my entire high school years and I was soon drafted into the family. So I now have, after 6 years of living/celebrating family events/vacationing/etc, 3 sisters and 3 brothers. 2 older sisters, Kirby and Kelcey(both adoptees). 1 older brother, Matthew(biological). 1 younger sister, Kendall(adoptee). And 2 younger brothers, Cody(biological) and James(adoptee).

Today was a very sexual day.

-First thing in the morning at the bathroom sink-
Sharon - "I can't get it out"
Jori - "That's what she said"

-Sharon is double checking welds on part, Jori is making sure nuts on part are in good working order-
Sharon - "Can you check this nut for me"?
Jori - "Oh, you want me to screw the nut for you and tell you if he's any good"?

-Jori is holding two screws-
Sharon - "Hey Rory, wanna screw"?
Rory - "What"?
Jori - "Wanna screw, two for one deal, Thursdays only"!
Rory - *shakes head and blushes*

-Chris comes by our cell with 3 SRG people, I'm still checking nuts-
Jori - "Hey Chris, wanna screw"?
Chris - "What"? *laughs*
Jori - "Wanna screw? I've been screwing things all day"!
Chris - "I think I'll stick around here a little longer" *giggles*

-New girl(Denise) is learning-
Denise - "Ow, I burned myself"
Sharon - "Bet she touched those nuts"
Jori - *giggles*
Sharon - "You only touch the big nuts once"!
Jori - *dies*

-Putting gauges onto part to check measurements-
Jori - "these are huge"
Sharon - *giggles*

-Doing paper work in the team room, Bobby and Pat are hot gluing fiberglass sheet with hole in middle-
Bobby - "this is hot and sticky"
Jori - "hahaha hot and sticky"
Bobby - *grins*

-Still doing paperwork-
Jori - "Our parts per hour is supposed to be 69"?
Sharon - "Yeah, but we got 62"
Jori - "...I wonder what 62 looks like"
Bobby - *giggles and grins*
Sharon - "Oh Jori" -laughs-

So I had a wonderful day and whats even better is that I am on Amber shift come the New year so I am incredibly excited about that except for the fact that Sharon is on Blue which means... POLAR OPPOSITE :( Sharon is my work life. BUT I will become reaquainted with all the aquaintences I made when I started :D

Shelly(my crazy trainer), has lightened up a bit and seems to be more accepting of me and my idiocy. Yay! We get along.. or rather, tolerate each other, much better now. Its fairly nice but I am stuck working with her for the next 3 months, which is the only possible downside of being on the Amber shift. I learned a new cell yesterday and today and as it turns out, said cell, makes two different parts and watching the machine change the jig itself is pretty wicked! Annnnd come the new year, Shelly and I will be running, as a team(one runs the machine, one double checks parts), these two cells, making 3 different parts a day. And how? WHO FUUUREAKIN KNOWS! lol...

I loved today. The only downside is the fact that I am currently cold and Copeland is busy doing stuff. I took pictures like the little camera whore I am, and I loved it. I deleted most of them.

♥

ohla !

This past weekend was awesome.

I am for shizzle in like i guess.

I was cleaning cages at the PetSmart in Ancaster and a cat got under a cage and I reached to egt him and I pulled a muscle in my shoulder and neck then when I was getting up I went face first into a cage door. Ow. Then I went to go buy a hot choclate from Second Cup and I had no cash and no debit card and I was spending the weekend in Hamilton. Idiot.

I think I loath Rick. A lot.

I'm beginning to regret a lot of things in life. Nothing too recent though.

On saturday I took Mike Copeland to a staff party thing and it was pretty awesome. He drove my car and I could've cried but I was drunk, he was wearing my favorite color and it was necessary. After, we went to two more parties. I did not enjoy the last one. After, we went back to Tyler's and Copeland and I didn't really sleep much because I never stop talking. How annoying of me. Either way, I enjoyed my company.

I enjoy going to Hamilton every weekend, I missed my Valerie way too much! Can't believe that shit!

SO... I have also decided that my new trainer hates me and is planning a large conspiracy against me but thats ok because I seem to get along with everybody else. She is training a new guy now too and I am the double checker.. whoopy but its apparently a good thing because SRG aren't allowed to double check not to mention this is only my fourth week so praise the heavens, I might have a real job in 2 more months! My trainer is definately sexist. She hates me, me is girl, him is boy... she likes him. She has been happy since he has been in our cell and she actually shipped me off for an hour or so today. She seemed very happy about that. Oh well.

I made a lasagna like a while ago and I should probably go eat it...

mowgli ♥

So friday I decided to cut my hair and just grabbed the front chunk, twisted and cut... mutilating my bangs and surrounding hair. To make matters worse I thought that I would try to layer the sides in an attempt to "blend". Thus cutting chunks out of my side hair and looking ridiculous. My grandmother tried to fix it last night and now I have bangs and chunky sides. Kind of like a really bad mullet. YAY!

Anyways... Rick is being a tool as always and I'm not beiung very nice so he thinks I hate him now.

(See photo) Valerie and Tyler saved kitties!! And they kept one and called him Mowgli and he is so cuuuute!!! I'm excited to meet him and I am so proud of them for being so brave and awesome!!!! I had a wonderful weekend with Valerie and I hope I have plenty more.

Work is pretty awesome... I'm now on straight mornings instead of nights bi-weekly and junk. I got moved to a different cell and its slower paced but the part is bigger and more awkward and it's a Delta S cell which means it is a very important job and our welds have to be double checked because of this. We are making safety parts for vehicles which is why it is so important. If these welds fail, we are at fault... kind of... and either way we don't want anybody to die because we made crappy parts !!!! Oh dear, listen to me... I sound like I've worked there WAY longer then 2 weeks... hahaha

Future plan.

1. Get rid of Neon
2. Get full time at Toyotetsu
3. Save lots of money
4. Get accepted to Mohawk for something
5. Quit job mid-summer ish
6. Move to Hamilton
7. Hang out with Valerie(and Jess) all the time
8. Go to college and be cool
9. Throughout all this I will find a boy my age who likes me and is cute.. Valerie better help! LOL
10. I will also visit Cassie an ass load

♥

I really need to get a hobby.