glorious..

I heard Shelly mutter "I hope you die" today... and I don't know if it was too me or if I'm hearing things but I loved it... kind of. I also found out that I am no longer guaranteed a job, I'm just there for as long as they need me... which after the 3 week break will only be a maximum of 2 months so YAY for Valerie, I might be moving to Hamilton a lot sooner then planned... But oh well, shit happens. I'm destined to find what I'm supposed to do sooner or later. If not today then there is always tomorrow. Until of course, 2012 when the world is supposed end. Seriously, what is up with that shit? How can you enjoy life knowing when you're going to die or when everyone else is going to die. Personally, I think it's a load of crap and if anything we'll just end up being over run by Asians(no offense) and robots who want nothing more then to enslave us, oh irony.

I'm currently listening to the first Ice Age and loving it and I'm also sitting on my bed in my underwear wondering why I put so much effort into this silly little thing when I don't want anybody to ever read it... One day, one day everyone will read this and nothing will be a secret but that's the internet for you. Tomorrow at work I am expected to do nothing, I am ever so excited and have no idea why I am still awake, perhaps it is the insane amount of sugar I have taken in within the past hour or two.

I definitely had a good weekend but now that's it over I'm not too sure I'm happy with myself. No regrets mind you, shit happens. I just hope it does in fact turn into more because even though I'm not going to get my hopes up and I'm going to try not get to upset with rejection once more, I really think that there is something there. BOYSBOYSBOYS! I met this guy on OkCupid and he's all talking to me all the time and I'm not sure why, but he is definitely hitting on me but OH WELL... At this point in time, I'm not even sure I want a relationship. I've enjoyed going up to Hamilton every weekend and partying with Valerie and hanging out with Mike too boot is even more fun but I don't know if its right for me... If Hamilton is right for me. Am I supposed to work for the rest of my life? Do I go to college(I'm going no matter what)? What do I go for? I don't want to go because if I'm either a) going to drop out of, b) fail, c) not enjoy what ever I do, it really won't be worth it because I don't have the money to waste or the family support to make any of those mistakes/choices.

Either way, that was just a little venting and I am in fact going to Mohawk College next fall in Hamilton for... something! Whether it be PSW(health sciences), Civil Engineering or Social Service Worker... I don't know, it just depends what I can get into really.

I have been told by three guys in the past 2 days that I am beautiful/pretty/gorgeous/etc and I'm not sure if I should believe them, its not that my confidence is that incredibly low that I can't tkae a compliment, it's just that my trust for guys is like... 0.25%.. for everyone really. There are a couple exceptions to people mind you.

Well, I really need to catch some shut eye, the morning comes sooner then I like... I'm not even sure who exactly I am talking to lol but I do however need a serious hobby or a personal diary rather then this online public notice of my life and its many quirks.